Oh why you look so sad
The tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now
Don’t be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through
Cause I’ve seen the dark side too

When the night falls on you
You don't know what to do
Nothing you confess
Could make me love you less

I’ll stand by you
I’ll stand by you
Won’t let nobody hurt you
I’ll stand by you

So if you're mad get mad
Don’t hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now
Hey, what you got to hide
I get angry too
Well I’m a lot like you

When you're standing at the crossroads
And don't know which path to choose
Let me come along
Cause even if you're wrong

I’ll stand by you
I’ll stand by you
Won’t let nobody hurt you
I’ll stand by you
Take me in into you darkest hour
And I’ll never desert you
I’ll stand by you

And when, when the night falls on you, baby
You feeling all alone
You won't be on your own

I’ll stand by you
I’ll stand by you
Won’t let nobody hurt you
I’ll stand by you
Take me in into you darkest hour
And I’ll never desert you
I’ll stand by you

Oh I’ll stand by you
I’ll stand by you

performed by The Pretenders



Untuk ayg.. tenang2 slalu ye.

aku: b menyampah kat diri b sbb syg ayg sgt.

ayg: ayg pun meyampah kat b sbb b syg ayg sgt. =P

aku: hehehehe


n ntah brape kali perkataan 'syg' digunakn lg dlm dialog seterusnye. =)







p/s: rndunye kat ayg..ish...

The sea's evaporating
Though it comes as no surprise
These clouds we're seeing
They're explosions in the sky
It seems it's written
But we can't read between the line

Hush
It's okay
Dry your eye
Dry your eye
Soulmate dry your eye
Dry your eye
Soulmate dry your eye
Cause soulmates never die

"Sleeping With Ghosts" by Placebo


p/s: b miss u syg.. sgt2 rndu. dah 6 bulan xjumpe. jg dr baik2 tau.

Teringat awal2 kenal ayg dulu. Act, just kwn. Then terjatuh hati. Padahal aku nk ngelak suka kat gurl stret. Sbb pk gurl stret ni xrase ape yg aku rase so they all bole berubah jadi stret anytime. Tp tu la..bile hati dah take over pikiran, =).

Dulu awal2 kenal, punye la byk hal nk sembang. Lebeh seratus mesej sehari agaknye. Tdo 2-3 pg just utk bermesej. even just utk tanye mkn ape hari ni? Dah mandi ke blum? Mcm2 bdk2 btul..hehe. msej ayat bunga2, xkira lg poem pasal bulan bintang, kalah ayat penyair arab.

Act, aku xsure bile aku jatuh cinta kat ayg, tp aku tau yg aku btul2 syg die bile satu masa tu, aku g ke satu tempat n then aku rase xselesa sgt n nk blk cpt jumpe die.

Bile dah jauh ni, mmg kdg2 x tau nk sembang ape dlm phone. Tp still nk call sbb rindu. N kdg2 ayg mcm cepat melenting (bukan die marah aku ). Bile kt jauh dgn org yg kt syg, mmg akan jd mcm tu.dulu time aku mula2 bercinta pun mcm tu, tp bile dah ade pengalamn, aku dah bole control. Aku 1st love ayg, so aku paham ape yg die rase.

Teringat time aku dgn 1st love aku dulu. Aku bljar silat kat skola, then bile blk umah time cuti pnjg, n jauh dari ex aku tu, aku jd panas brn. Asik cari pasal dgn semua org. then abah aku sound, die kata tau la bljar silat, jgn la sket2, trus nak silat adik beradik aku tu.hehe, skrang aku dah lupe pun silat.ish3x..

Ayg, b bukan nk ungkit hal ex b tau. Point kat cni ialah, b pham ape yg ayg rase. So jgn isau k. nnt ayg akn overcome phase ni. Ayg b kan remaja lg. =P

Xtau nape td ayg mesej n tanye aku yakin x dgn die, n die tanye brape percent aku yakin (ish.. gurl mmg suka tanya soalan tricky mcm ni tau..) aku jwb la yg aku yakin n aku bg 99.99%. besela, aku kn bdk kimia, mana ade bnda xde impurities kan. Then aku tanye nape die tanye soalan tu? Even die bg jwpn, still aku xphm point die. Ish.. nak tanye lg, tp ayg tgh mengajar ni.so nnt la.

So b nk ayg tau yg b xpenah nyesal syg ayg, n b nk trus syg ayg slalu. N b nk ayg tau gak, it’s ok klau ayg xtau nk sembang ape bile b col or ym, bile kt byk diam dlm phone, sbb bile ayg ade dgn b, kt pun slalu diam n just pluk each other n rasa selesa. B tau ayg syg b n b kenal ayg b yg susah luahkn ape yg die rasa. Yg plg penting, b tau hati u still rasa hangat bila pk kan b sbb b pun mcm tu jg. Jd, jgn pk bukan2 ye syg.


p/s:

Believe me when I say
that I could see you when I shut my eyes,
Believe me when I say
that I could hear nothing,
Nothing but just the beat of my heart,


The way it rambles endlessly and out of rhythm..


My love,
I’m sweating and overwhelming,
Yet the feel of warm n tenderness,
They're holding me in.
Like the fond of your breath,
Gently touching my neck.

If this isn’t love, my darling,
If it’s just a madness, dear love one,
That‘s spreading like a fire under my skin,
Then let me live with it,
Though I felt suffocated,
Never once, I could live without it.

-urs-

rapuan

Aku xsure aku penah citer ke x dlm blog ni. Sebelum aku smpai US ni dulu, beberape ari b4 aku fly, ayg bg aku 4 pucuk surat. Surat cinta la kot namanye. =) n diari die sepanjng tahun 2008. Act ayg aku ni xbyk ckp orgnye, tp die bole jd suka bercerita bile ade mood die n bile die dah “warming up”. Tu istilah ktorang. Ayg ni lambat nk warming up kdg2. Mmg lmbat. hehehe

So thru diari die, aku bole tau ape die rase bile die mcm susah sgt nk ckp kat aku. N b4 aku fly tu, lg byk perkara mcm xterluah dek ayg. So die tulis surat wat teman aku kat cni. Mcm2 die pesan, even aku tau die tau aku lg pndai jg diri dari die. =P besenye aku yg pesan mcm2 kat die. Tp aku hargai semua tu. Sekali sekala aku akn bace surat2 die n diari die. N lps bace, aku akn try lupakn smua yg aku bace. Then lps sebulan katakn, aku baca blk n aku akn rase mcm dah lama sgt xbace sbb xingat dah ape yg aku penah baca dulu.

Nway, mggu ni ktorang berdua sgt2 la malas n mcm xde wawasan je hidup ni. Ayg ngadu kat aku smalam n padahal aku pun nk ngadu kat die pasal hal yg same. Hehe. tp rasenye ayg dah semangat sket kot ari ni sbb aku rase semangat sket banding dgn 3-4 hari lps. Hrp2 chemistry tu kuat.

Kdg2 mmg aku rase ldr ni susah. Ye la, bile jauh2 ni aku rase aku jd someone yg membosankan utk ayg plak. Or maybe tu feeling aku je sbb ayg dah keje kan, so suasana tu mcm lain dr time die study dulu. Byk benda lain die kena pk n ayg kata maybe aku rase mcm tu sbb dia bz n mcm kurang bg attention. Xtau la. Huhu. Kdg2 rase mcm ayg x layan aku sgt atau aku ke yg paranoid. Ayg kata xtau la nape. Yg klakarnye ayg kata ni mayb karma sbb aku suka wat org dulu, so secara xlgsung aku dpt balasan bile ayg tbe2 jd mcm ala2 xde mood je.

Skrang dah jauh, mmg xdpt la aku nk baca diari ayg. N ayg mmg jrg tulis blog, sbb die xtau nk tulis ape kot. aku rindu gak nk bca tulisan ayg. N bulan ni ayg xbernasib baik sgt sbb kena saman n kete die terlanggar divider. Nsb baik xtruk.huhu. hp die pun mcm nak kena tukar. Hati2 lain kali ye syg.

hmm..

Kadang2 bile aku baca blk blog aku ni, macam aku obsess dgn ayg. tp maybe aku mmg obsess dgn die kot. aku mmg suka citer hal die ni. Mcm syok sendri plak. Xkisah la,blog ktorang kan. Hehe.

Anyway, time cuti ni, dpt la gak col n ym ayg slalu. Tp time aku g jejln ari tu, xdpt ym sgt. N cuti ayg plak dah nk abes. Kat Malaysia dah ahad kn. Tadi aku col ayg, die tgh sarapan kat luar dgn mak abah die. Huhu. Mak die tau plak tu aku kerap col n ym anak die. Ish..isau plak aku. Ye la, kwn yg rapat mcm mane la yg col tiap2 ari kan.

Aritu time kenduri kat umah aku n maklang aku sibuk merisik ayg, nasib baik mak ayg xstuju. Ye la, bukan aku nk kutuk cousin sendri kan. Tp cousin aku tu besar, muka garang n mmg garang la. Ish..xsesuai. dah la ayg ni aku punye. N ayg plak mnje, chumel n ish..xbole la. If ayg bukan awek aku pun, aku xsyorkn mane2 kwn aku utk cousin aku tu. Pendek kata, aku sorang je tau layan ayg. Hehe. ye ke yang?

Dulu b4 kenal ayg, pas aku clash dgn ex, aku pk aku xnk la bwk blk awek aku jumpe family or terjumpa mane2 family aku. Sbb if aku clash n ex aku dah stop dtg umah, sure family aku tanye. Mcm hal ex aku dulu tu. Tp xdpt dielakkn la, mesti terbawak gak ayg n terjumpa gak family aku tu. Just ayg xpernah lg tdo umh aku. Aku je tdo umah die. Oleh sbb ayg ni cikgu, puteh n nmpak lembut je, so mmg mcm jd pilihan la utk wat menantu. Tu yg aku lg xnk bg die dtg umah aku slalu. Isau..huhu.

Dlm blog ni, aku suka puji ayg. maybe kat mata org lain, die nmpak bese je. Tp dah aku syg die, mesti la aku puji die kan ;) ari tu ayg kata kan bes if aku bole dtg umah die, merisk, bertunang, kawen n bwk die g oversea. N tbe2 gak ayg slalu kata kan best if bole ade anak dgn aku. Hehe..tbe2 la plak ayg ade maternal instinct kan. if bole, aku on je asalkan bukan aku yg pregnant. Hehehe.

Ayg tgh isau hal result exam anak2 murid die tu. Susah jadi cikgu ni..bdk2 yg xnk bljar, kt yg tensen. Nasib baik aku xminat jd cikgu. Tp xpe yang, ni ur first exam . usaha lg k. sok jgn malas2 g keje ye. =)

Owh ye, ayg, even b ayg ni mcm berani, tp if mak u yg angkat phone umah u time b col, mmg b ketar la nk ckp. Ish..seriau.. Dari dulu kan yang. B gugup.huhu. agak2 klau b bole mntak u dari parents u, sure baju b basah berpeluh2 n asyik g toilet je b4 jumpe .hehe. mintak map la b letak phone if mak u yg angkat.hehe.tu tindakan reflex. =p


And now you're my whole life
now you're my whole world
I just can't believe the way I feel about you, girl
Like a river meets the sea,
stronger than it's ever been.
We've come so far since that day
And I thought I loved you then.

I could just see you, with a baby on the way
And I could just see you, when your hair is turning gray
What I can't see is how I'm ever gonna love you more
But I've said that before

Then, by brad paisley.